I joined AFTRA last August and can’t believe I’m already less than 6 months away from the 1 yr. mark. What is soo frustrating is the fact that this is such a struggle for me, an actual actor (there are so many non-actors doing BG work now), dedicated to the hustle, always in training, and wanting to be nothing but an actor. Even the CDs at Central who cast SAG projects have told me that they are very surprised I’ve yet to receive all of my vouchers yet. I know they can only do so much, but it’s still frustrating to hear that vote of confidence w/ no follow-up. Also…I’ve heard many stories from women–w/ much larger breasts than I–that if they really tried, they really could do more than just “so much.”

I go to CD workshops, I do my networking, I send out the approved headshots w/ the resume on the back and the postcards, I pimp out my business cards, I take classes w/ highly recommended teachers who have lists of famous clientele to justify their credibility, I have the well-known agent (who is also my manager, I win w/ that one!), I get the consistent positive feedback needed to validate that this is my niche, I’m notably nice, mannered, but ballsy, and yet…at the end of the day…I am still bombarded w/ signs that the people who truly matter in this industry truly do not see a place for me in this industry.

I know this is what I got into, but it’s this whole getting into SAG business and the fact that I didn’t expect it (of allllllll the things) to serve as an eye-opener of what a monster my true passion is. I’m just rambling now…Oh, did I mention that I’m Asian? We aren’t all like Bai Ling…